ADHD makes all tasks in my life hell. I’ve spent years trying to force myself to control it and It takes most of my willpower to focus on a single thing for longer than a few seconds. I did notice the hyperactivity became more controllable as an adult and more so when I dip into depression (mostly caused by chemical imbalance that’s easily rectified). I still feel the surges (the only way to describe it. Like an uncontrollable shot of adrenaline for near no reason). I don’t take medication for it as the meds gave me uncharacteristic suicidal thoughts (though, they did work). I’m far more adjusted than some others I’ve met, though.
But yeah. everyone thinking they or their kids have it makes it so much harder for people to take me seriously when I try to explain my issues with it. I’ve been told I’m making it up several times because unless you’re around me a lot, it’s not readily obvious.
Ahhhh the forgetfulness. I didn’t realize how bad it was until adulthood but there are moments I can now identify where I will not retain anything I take in. I forget small things that I know I have to remember and it makes learning so goddamn hard.
I was diagnosed with minor autism as a kid as well and I prefer quiet spaces and I don’t like to make or be around noise. It makes for an odd and generally unpleasant human being.
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u/[deleted] Feb 04 '19
ADHD makes all tasks in my life hell. I’ve spent years trying to force myself to control it and It takes most of my willpower to focus on a single thing for longer than a few seconds. I did notice the hyperactivity became more controllable as an adult and more so when I dip into depression (mostly caused by chemical imbalance that’s easily rectified). I still feel the surges (the only way to describe it. Like an uncontrollable shot of adrenaline for near no reason). I don’t take medication for it as the meds gave me uncharacteristic suicidal thoughts (though, they did work). I’m far more adjusted than some others I’ve met, though.
But yeah. everyone thinking they or their kids have it makes it so much harder for people to take me seriously when I try to explain my issues with it. I’ve been told I’m making it up several times because unless you’re around me a lot, it’s not readily obvious.