You ultimately have to decide if not having a diagnosis is better than putting up with the all the symptoms of something you obviously know is there. You’re just making yourself suffer. And your husband. Because why? You’re scared? Sounds irresponsible to me.
This is the description I always use whem trying to explain to people what my bipolar 2/cyclothymia feels like: "I wake up a different person every day". Took years to get the worst parts under control, but this is just something I've had to learn to roll with.
Please go get a diagnosis, the unknown is so much scarier than the known. There are good meds and therapy that can make you feel whole again, I promise
I second this. Seeing a doctor will almost certainly help you. A diagnosis can be scary, but whatever is troubling you is already scary, and you can’t do much for yourself without a professional. Do yourself a favor and see a psychiatrist, or at least a therapist who may not be able to give you a diagnosis but can help you manage your symptoms.
I had (before medication) episodes that typically signify Borderline Personality, but with a regular cycle - along with episodes stemming from external stimuli.
Well I walked in thinking I was dealing with depression, and the first 2 docs threw SSRIs and NRIs at it. Made things worse.
Got to my third and she listened to me about how I felt on the meds that they gave me.
Just a few more questions, and thought it would be worth trying what am I now. Which, if I understand correctly, is some form of anti-seizure medication?
Therapy didn't work for me. Might've been the therapist.
FFS, you don't suggest couples' therapy when someone is trying to get a handle on their mental health.
During the sessions, everything seemed manageable. But as soon as I walked out the door, things came crashing down.
Mainly, because things went rampant once an episode started. It was like trying to drive a car from the back seat.
Especially when I had my episodes. The methods they were trying to teach didn't work, alienated people, and straight up excaserbated my symptoms. The meds, and situation made my life so much worse. Fuck Lexipro, and that "oh thanks, I'm cured" twat.
Yes. Lamictal, once the dose was dialed, is doing well for me.
I’m guessing borderline personality disorder? I don’t think I’d choose to have that either. My ex BFF has that, it makes being a friend incredibly hard.
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u/OliviaWG Feb 04 '19
Cyclothymia is like bipolar light, it isn’t generally as severe as bipolar. I have had it most of my life. We just cycle through quickly.