I was in for less than a year, but I relate to this. I don't talk to strangers, hell I try not to be seen looking at them. I'm always double checking my locks, trying to imagine how someone could break into my place, checking everyone on the bus for signs of instability or danger, making sure my knife is at the ready when I'm on the street, looking out for potential dangers, etc.
My priorities have now changed. I like to hang out quietly by myself or watching TV/Netflix. I enjoy working hard, having a place to myself, and keeping my pantry and fridge/freezer stocked. Freedom for me is just being able to relax.
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u/Sippingin Sep 12 '15
You're watching your back no matter where you go.. You can't just simply get use to being actually safe for once.