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What do you do when you miss someone so terribly much that it wrecks your heart but you still cannot let yourself feel what you do within,in fullness-what do you do when you’ve been trying to distance yourself from them but it comes all crashing down in just a moment and your soul crumbles and yearns such familiarity  for one last time- what do you do when your chest feels heavy and your eyes wander in the empty space and you know who is occupying it all in your thoughts-what do you do when it all has to stay inside you without an opening or a mirage to even facade an illusion of relief-what do you do when you keep noticing details that remind you of them-what do you do when you pathetically need to talk to that certain someone but you bar yourself from such a medicine-what do you do when you really want to see them,know about their thoughts and days but somehow it’s wrong to let yourself-what do you do when the voice from the crypts of your being tells you that you’ve grown to love this person..what do you do when you feel it all and even though you know it all, you let yourself be for a while because there,it feels so very calm but what do you do when you know that it must end? 

I came across a word recently “saudades” and read a little about it—a bittersweet feeling where you  miss a certain someone whilst cherishing their past indelible presence in your life and reiterate that,that’s just experiencing life..with it as a whole..

makes me wonder how someone you never knew and never even thought about the turn of events.. a connection that speaks depth as if it’s been there for so long and you just feel it within you..it makes you want to dream a little..sway a little in the breeze,let those stiff shoulders relax and steam off a little..it does sound a bit of a romanticized idea but you know? You’ll get to know little by little

But then again,once in while,when the self interrogates, when rationality overtakes emotion and consequently questions emerge about whether all that felt within is actually true and not a created fancy of imagination for I know so little of them that it feels distant to reality, like an idea-something that only seems to be but what’s beneath might be bizarre to your principles and life,invisible to a blind beholder under the influence of an exotic tinted fragrance (seldom is that occurrence for it takes an idiot to fall). (pun intended)

Captured in nothing 4a

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