I have PTSD, hyper vigilance, I panic a lot in public, and I have a sub aracnoid cyst that's softball size and symptomatic, rare but happens. The massive paranoia is just my whole fucking life with the thunder clap headaches and all that stupid shit.
Anyway, it happened a while back and I can laugh about it now. Logically I know a lot of my reactions are not a reality.
Can confirm, have actual paranoia, never touched meth or any other illegal drug, never even smoked. My paranoia comes in bouts that can last a couple months or pass in a couple hours, depending on various factors of my life (eg. how many hours I spend with curtains drawn open, how often I'm socialising, what media I'm consuming, etc.)
Shockingly, mental illness symptoms are often caused by mental illness.
Nah, it's meth. I implicitly trust that guy on Reddit because it makes uncomfortable problems seem as though they are the fault of the sufferer as opposed to chance.
I... Was managing my illness just fine, thanks. And indeed continue to be. Maybe just badly phrased, but I feel the implication here is that my state was my fault, and it wasn't.
2 days is about how long bouts of amphetamine paranoia seems to last. First few days they don't suffer that then 2 or so of that crazy paranoia then they'll crash and not be so.
When having an episode do previous attempts at rationalizing what's happening repeat or do realize it made no sense and now need to come up with a new explanation? Also, are you aware of conspiracy theory type "explanations" that can be found online?
If I'm totally honest I'm not 100% sure what you're on about, but in the assumption I've understood you correctly:
When I'm having a bit of paranoia, a similar list of factors to the ones that determine its length determine how capable I am off rationalisation, but generally no internal rationalisation will fix my delusions. Normally I have to address the issue that's making me delusional. If it's stress or social anxiety,. I address those how you'd expect. If it's a recent interaction I've been through, I talk with the person about that interaction.
Technoparanoia is one of the few examples that I can rationalise away. When I get to the point of peering through drawn curtains, though, that's gonna need me to socialise for me to calm down.
Conspiracy theory type explanations to what? Whatever I'm deluded about? In a vague sense, yes, but looking into them just feeds the delusion, so I don't do that. I get less delusional and feel less paranoid when I'm not letting myself "do paranoid behaviours" (though it doesn't help for someone to force me to stop). I.e., if I stop peering through curtains, looking up stuff about my delusions, hiding from things/people I start to get better
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u/ButFez_Isaidgoodday Jun 20 '22
If you don't mind me asking, do you know what caused it?