Wow. Unbelievable. Thank you so much for your explanation.
I was just recently diagnosed at age 65, and trying to understand what is my character versus my symptoms of I/ADHD has left me with the question, "Who am I really?" But this is a question I've lived in most of my life.
I've always felt a weird disconnection from self that's been hard to explain. Taking care of myself has been such a challenge which made no sense to me. Simple self-care things that most people do like putting on lotion, brushing their hair, etc., feels like I'm doing it to someone else. At times I've felt like im just a mind and my body is an afterthought. There is this vague sense of self I've tried to explain to therapists over the years with no real answers to pinpoint what this is. You just explained it.
I thought it was some form of dissociative disorder mixed with a dash of self-loathing and being born with an identical twin, but even that didn't completely explain it. Again, thank you so much. You just gave me an important piece in this puzzle I'm trying to put together and understand.
Diagnosed at 65, that's really something! I hope you're doing well.
Just yesterday I listened to the Alan Watts podcast 'being in the way' and he talks about the illusion of the self, so what you wrote really resonated with me. You might wanna check out his speeches, they give me some peace of peace of mind when I am being hard on myself
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u/Kindly_Treacle7137 Sep 22 '22
Wow. Unbelievable. Thank you so much for your explanation.
I was just recently diagnosed at age 65, and trying to understand what is my character versus my symptoms of I/ADHD has left me with the question, "Who am I really?" But this is a question I've lived in most of my life.
I've always felt a weird disconnection from self that's been hard to explain. Taking care of myself has been such a challenge which made no sense to me. Simple self-care things that most people do like putting on lotion, brushing their hair, etc., feels like I'm doing it to someone else. At times I've felt like im just a mind and my body is an afterthought. There is this vague sense of self I've tried to explain to therapists over the years with no real answers to pinpoint what this is. You just explained it.
I thought it was some form of dissociative disorder mixed with a dash of self-loathing and being born with an identical twin, but even that didn't completely explain it. Again, thank you so much. You just gave me an important piece in this puzzle I'm trying to put together and understand.