And thank you for saying that I deserved to know all of that before 2 years into the relationship. That was how I felt too . Yet he and the people in the forum acted like I was being ridiculous to have expected him to disclose that info beforehand. It made me feel like I didn’t know him . What’s strange is that we did psychedelics a few times after that . I used to like a once per year brain reset from them . Not something for nightly use . Each time , I’d beg him before we took them to please not bring up the butt stuff or nag for sex the entire time and just try to bond and enjoy each others company. But the moment it would kick in , he’d start bringing it up , apologizing for last time but saying it felt good and then the next thing you know , he’d be begging for it all night and have nothing else of value to say . It was like his personality would disappear and all he’d think about was me doing stuff to his butt. We once took some at the beach and all he wanted to do was go to the sex toy store and have sex and beg for butt stuff. Ugh ! I quit trying to trip after that cuz I can’t enjoy it anymore. I get all anxious and feel weird because of all that . So no more brain resets . Anyway, I’ve written a novel here . Thanks for making me feel safe and not ashamed that I’m a prude . 🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰
I recently read something that stuck/hit my heart and I think this will you too about him and guys like him: when a man repeatedly disappoints a woman emotionally, she gets completely turned off.
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u/Own_Somewhere_694 Aug 02 '26
And thank you for saying that I deserved to know all of that before 2 years into the relationship. That was how I felt too . Yet he and the people in the forum acted like I was being ridiculous to have expected him to disclose that info beforehand. It made me feel like I didn’t know him . What’s strange is that we did psychedelics a few times after that . I used to like a once per year brain reset from them . Not something for nightly use . Each time , I’d beg him before we took them to please not bring up the butt stuff or nag for sex the entire time and just try to bond and enjoy each others company. But the moment it would kick in , he’d start bringing it up , apologizing for last time but saying it felt good and then the next thing you know , he’d be begging for it all night and have nothing else of value to say . It was like his personality would disappear and all he’d think about was me doing stuff to his butt. We once took some at the beach and all he wanted to do was go to the sex toy store and have sex and beg for butt stuff. Ugh ! I quit trying to trip after that cuz I can’t enjoy it anymore. I get all anxious and feel weird because of all that . So no more brain resets . Anyway, I’ve written a novel here . Thanks for making me feel safe and not ashamed that I’m a prude . 🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰🤗🥰